April 7, 2025 ~ Monday

So… I accidentally let the billing for this blog go through for another month. So… another month!

Yesterday was a pretty great day. I spent a few hours in the morning in reflection, journaling, about the conversation with my son sat night. It was really meaningful and progressive. Special. Writing things down helps me remember them. And I don’t want to forget.

I spent some time going through old schoolwork and material I used to create a scrapbook of Kalob’s childhood. Reminiscing about good times and trying to think of something meaningful to do for him for his 26th birthday next weekend. It was special to have the things Kalob worked on so many years ago. I no longer regret having made such efforts to hold onto them. ❤️❤️❤️

Also did some housework. Meg and I are similar in that we like open doors and windows in the spring and fall… and it is pollen season in Richmond. YUCK. A lot of work indoors but worth the nice breeze that makes its way through the house at times.

In the afternoon, I went to meet with a girl from a nonprofit in the area, one of Meg’s contacts, to talk about ways I might be able to support the organization. Ended up meeting with two women who seem to have marketing covered. Not a bad thing.

Sadly, (?), the second woman who joined us is a friend of mine on Facebook. I don’t really know her. I just mean connected on Facebook. And she read all about my breakdown… posts… including my family’s posts… recently. We ended up talking about it.

The first girl, the one who administers the website… her husband has the same issues.

By the end of the meeting I’d given the girls my number… they did not give me theirs. It’s ok. They really do have marketing covered and I’m really not too interested in just being a think tank. I wanted to work. I shared a couple ideas I had and we parted ways.

Oh. And their board meetings are closed right now. Nonprofit board meetings are supposed to be open. I’m not interested in working as a think tank and not knowing how ideas are progressing, if they would, through the org. My time is valuable too. Probably best not to get involved at all. Politics!

After the meeting I came home and tried napping for a little while but couldn’t. This is good. I was napping too much not that long ago.

So I went to see my kids and babies again! It was nice. Just trying to be a normal family again. It was so “normal,” that my son fell asleep on the sofa early. I mean it sincerely, this was a good sign in my opinion. Gabby cooked, I cleaned. Grandpa Kevin was there working on a project. It was nice.

Home and in bed asleep by 10:15.

This morning… Meg was up before me. Unusual. Nice that we got to talk a little though. Mornings can be lonely for me.

I go to intensive outpatient treatment for the first time for a few hours this morning. I feel up to it. It’s going to be good to have access to a psychiatrist regularly for a little while. Maybe I’ll learn more about my health issues.

It’s raining so I’m not going to mind being cooped up today.

This afternoon I go to see Michael in Lakeside about some marketing work. His nonprofit.

This evening I play pool.

So… I guess I have some good things going on.

Oh. I haven’t mentioned I’ve been talking to a couple gentlemen who know all about my issues. Just talking.

One, I met when I had my business directing pool tournaments. We’re connected on Facebook. He watched my illness unfold over the past few months and is still interested.

The other, we’re not connected on Facebook but he knows all about my issues too. He knew I had my illness before I did, when I was like 15 years old. I have a letter he wrote to me back then on my mirror in my room right now. In the letter, he recommended some reading to me, including a book called Go Ask Alice, about mental illness. I am committed to finally reading it. Soon.

He and I have connected on and off over the years. He’s the one I met at the beach a couple weeks ago. He currently lives in Baltimore.

So… I’ll get ready for my day. Looks like it’ll be a long one. A good one.

Meds. Out of vitamins. Coffee. Riley. Facebook. Blog. AA Daily Reflection - about trying to tie a Higher Power with having support from family and friends into finding the program and getting sober. Hmmm need to think on this one. I like it.

I’m soooo grateful for my family and friends. Riley. So much. MEG.

Have an amazing day!