Ugh! I don't know how I let my friend talk me into Waffle House after dancing last night. Keeps us out way too late for me! Very slow this morning.
Yesterday was a lot of fun visiting my kids. I also heard from my brother which was nice. He told me he's proud of me. 🥰 Inspired me to work on my book some more yesterday afternoon. It's shaping up!
My heart is hurting for my family and it's eatrangements. They feel so impossible. I feel helpless to improve them. And I wish so much I could!
I can't explain how I can not be angry for not knowing everyone. I think my mind is just trying to do the best it can and there isn't any room for that emotion in my being. Perhaps my mood stabilizer also prevents that type of hurt?
I also think my heart and mind are always on survival mode. I need everyone on my team to be in my life so that I'm as prepared as I can be for the lows. The low points in my days... sometimes I wonder how I'll ever get through. It's true that I haven't had any really bad days in awhile. I imagine this blog has alor to do with that too, in addition to my incredibly strong team.
Another thought I've had about how I cannot be angry with him. Morris said once, he's a success story. I believe this to be true. I respect that. His childhood was ridiculously difficult. No kids should face so much neglect and hardship. To rise above it, have a successful career and family... he is a survivor too.
Over the years I've conditioned myself to tune out negative and look for the good in situations. The good in his, includes family and work life balance, AND intelligence. He has developed a great understanding I believe of family loyalty and parenting.
Anyway, I've processed quite a bit this week after the last review of my book. I'm not discouraged anymore. Onward and forward. Yes, I will be proud of the final product and believe my grandkids will be too, when they're old enough. I think the book shows a lot of courage. But, it looks different already than last week too. It's better.
Today I need to get a power point presentation ready for work tomorrow. Post an ad. Pick up meds. Attend a poker game and watch the Super Bowl with friends.
I heard from my sister today. 🥰😉
Meds/vitamins. Dogs. Coffee. News. Facebook. Prepped my pill box for a new week.
Have an amazing day!
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