July 24, 2024 ~ Weds

Instead of my regular routine, this morning I woke up with a plan. I spent time completing intake paperwork and made it to a center that provides mental health support services before 8am. By 10, I was all processed and scheduled to begin outpatient therapy on August 1st.

My thoughts were just getting too dark.

While I was there, I was reminded of everything that I’ve been through over the past 4 years, since leaving E. And I was reminded of the difficulties causing me to feel the need to leave in the first place.

The woman who did my assessment said something that really hit home. She said someone once told her that growing old with grace isn’t for sissies. Well said! And the truth is… many people struggle in ways I’ve been struggling, looking for new hobbies and new friends, and it has nothing to do with my mental health issues.

I am a warrior.

~~~~~~~~~~~

Interestingly after having a HORRIBLE morning and making the decision to get help, yesterday, I felt better. Well enough to even work some on my book! Who am I to be trying to give advice to others? I put in the book that I still struggle sometimes, and I do.

I shared it with my brother. I wonder if he hates it like mom did.

I told him this morning about feeling down and going to get help. He told me he’s praying for me and I need to find the Lord. How?

Casey has been sent from the Lord I think. 😉

I’d go see my kids this evening if they weren’t having a Covid scare in their home right now. Poor things!