So! Where it was awkward at times… I still managed to have a really nice day at the lake with my girlfriends yesterday, without alcohol. I was even able to help pull the jet ski in and out of the water easily. I did not ask to take it out by myself yet because the water was a little choppy, but I enjoyed riding with Tonya for the first time.
After the lake, I walked Riley and got ready to go dancing. Again, without alcohol. It was okay. We were all pretty tired.
7 hours of sleep but might get a little more. I have no concrete plans today. I want to go see my kids but Gabby is still really sick. Maybe I’ll steal Rowan and take her somewhere.
I need to take care of a gross, embarrassing problem today. Roaches. I don’t know if neighbors sorayed and drove them here or what, but I’ve seen 2. YUCK!!! I have the bombs ready and will take me and Riley out of here to set them off in a bit. Then, clean. Ugh
My neighbor Jay mowed my front yard for me last week but the back is a jungle, so maybe I’ll get to that too.
And time to suck it up and buy a couple larger bras because of my weight gain. I’m tired of feeling so uncomfortable all the time.
Maybe I’ll check out the Baptist service around the corner again this morning. Hopefully it’ll be a better one this time.
I keep thinking about E. I’m so disappointed. We were getting along so well. But, I will be enough, with or without property, for the right man.
Again, I woke up feeling down. And again, I feel my mood lifting after taking my medication. Makes this life bearable and gives me hope.
I keep thinking about something my sister said the other day about my household income. I’m in something called the F—- zone. I make too much money at $60K to qualify for assistance, and not enough to live comfortably. I mean really. It’s true. It’s not enough for someone who needs therapy. $80 a visit? What if I needed to see someone weekly? Like I should right now.
I keep thinking about something that was said during intake at the mental health agency the other day. 2 years without a crisis. Maybe my current med regime is actually working. What if I hadn’t been drinking? I wouldn’t have made such a mess of my life?
A good thing, because I won’t be bored, I really have a lot to do today.
I could also try to squeeze in pickle ball at any point in time like I discovered last weekend, and I could go to the library and check out books. Maybe a few on crocheting and knitting blankets. I’m thinking about making them for my grandbabies. I could take Riley to the park. We haven’t been there since Diesel passed. He loved getting in the water. Then, I could give him a nice bath. I could try to find someone to help me replace the shower head in my bathroom. The water pressure in my shower is ridiculously, frustratingly slow. Maybe it’s just the shower head?
I could finish reading this great book I borrowed, Into the Water, by Paula Hawkins. I could start reading Hillbilly Elegy again, by JD Vance. I could work in my WRAP Plus workbook. I could open my Bible. But where?
I’m so grateful to be feeling better. What a rough week!
What I really need to do today. Take care of the roaches. Look for a part-time job I can work on the weekends. It wouldn’t be the end of the world. I’m never going to be able to buy another house if I don’t take care of my credit card debt.
I’m also grateful for such a wonderful daughter-in-law, who sent me a video of KJ crawling for the first time! I’m grateful for my son, who’s going to help me with Riley today so I can take care of my house, if I need him. I’m grateful for my girlfriends, who were great yesterday talking with me about my choice to abstain from alcohol. I’m grateful for JD and G, who keep checking on me and, my sister. Who helped me tremendously in getting through this past week. And my brother, who’s putting time into reviewing my book. 💕
Starting my day with thoughts of gratitude.
And because it’s Sunday, time to prepare my pill box for a new week.
Meds/vitamins. Coffee. Water. Riley. Barking at me, wants to walk? Facebook. Need to do. Blog. News.
Have an amazing day!
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